Lost in the midst

Do you ever have the feeling that you felt lost and don't know what to do regarding about a particular issue? I have. And it had been with me since long.

To conclude, in the long-run, true love don't exist all all. Love is just a deceiving actor in life, making you so lost and you feel upset and depressed emotionally.

Initial stage of relationship is definitely the happiest, the long talks, the walks together and making you forget everything in the world. You feel happy and feel that he is definitely the one for you.

When challenges come along, disrupting in your relationship, you feel angry because you feel that both of you are make for each other. You try to resist against the external forces and the more resistance eventually give you the wish that you want, to be with him. You are happy.

Then after that stage, fights and arguements start cropping up, even every issues. We human beings are never perfect, you tried to change him and vice-versa and interfere into his life. He felt trapped, as though the rules are make by you.
This is further worsen if he was apart from you for a few years and by the time he came back, he had changed completely. Not only physically but also mentally. His thoughts had been influenced and now, there was competition between your ideas and his ideas, and most importantly, goals in life. He sees that being together with you, and need to spend as much time as possible together, but you see your future, and you work hard for your future as more important. As a result, they conflicted each other. Eventually, you feel scared. Scared that you have to participate in the "diplomatic" talk with him and yet, you have insufficient time to complete your goals and work. He doesnt understand, but rather feel that he shld be the top priority.

You worred that you would lose him and vice-versa, but fights broke out every single day, and yet, your work is killing you, you suffered from emotional distress and yet you cant show it, because you were the one who deserve it since you resist against the external factors. He kept thinking that he is trying to change your life to the better, but you cant change, because it is not you. You had been govern by the culture you live in and not the culture he stays in.

Then eventually, you keep thinking, should you give up on him and complete your goals or forget your goals and be with him, but one thing for certain, they don't complement each other.

True love is a lie and it never exists, it was just a deliberate attempt to hurt the people involved, causing side effects such as emotional distress.

And, slow learners should never participate in relationship young, only fast learners could. Because slow learners need time, and need to fight against time and his own goals in life.

Comments

[AnDReW]

Hey Hang in There :)

Gambateh!!! Dun Give up!!1

[Christina]

thanks thanks!:)